Happy Full Moon Lunar Eclipse, Sweet Ones! Who else couldn't sleep last night? I stopped checking the time around 4am MST because it was making me more anxious. I was writing letters to Baby Future Ancestor Lettie in my head & crying. & then I spent the first half of my day feeling sad & watching family dramas & crying some more. Admittedly, they all had a mom theme. Guess what I was crying about? (& probably still am, just on the inside.) Tonight there is a full lunar eclipse that will make the moon blush a glorious rusty red. The first time I watched a full moon lunar eclipse was about four years ago. I remember praying & wondering what my future would be like. There were so many things I could not know, so many things we would survive to get to here. It has not been easy. I'm so close to getting things I want, necessary & beautiful things, life things that make me want to stay here, important gift things that make me a believe in my own magic. I am so close to Home. & for as close as I am, I also feel so far. Where was I going with this again? The Blood Moon is here. I was looking back at the New Moon reading from a few weeks ago, & noticed that every card shone back that same rusty red, which tells me that the stars & planets & Ancestors have been prepping us for this shedding for a while now. & there it is in the last card, that rusty red fire suite fortuneteller. Ok, I think we're ready now. Let's dive! Past: Mentor of Feathers Present: Seeker of Feathers Future: Five of Keys Past: Mentor of Feathers This card is all about expressing your grief. The blue "speaking bubbles" above the crow are shaped like lungs, & lungs are where we hold our grief. The crow is a bird that is magical & powerful & is able to travel back & forth from Life to Death & back to Life again. This is a card about letting the grief out, naming it, telling yourself the truth of the pain or sharing it with someone you trust. Though this may be an old grief, according to the fallacy that is linear time, this wound is tender to the touch. It still requires a lot of energy to protect it, which means it's not as healed as you hoped. That's ok. You just have to find a way to let it out. I wrote a blog post, "How to Help Die What Needs to Die," yesterday, that can help. The main idea here is to let it out. The reasons you kept it in were valid & your trust was true, & now things are different. You do not have to hold these hurts so close to or in your precious heart space. You get to have more room to breathe & more room to grow. Uhhhh, I just realized that I wrote this in the present tense & it was supposed to be in the past tense. So, if you've followed the intuitions to let some things go, you're doing so good! & if you received the inner promptings to do that but were unsure, this is your sign to do it! & if you were unaware, well now you know, tender heart! If you’d like to make an important donation to support this valuable work, there’s a Paypal link on the sidebar of my website. I’d really love to receive $50-$100 for my creative efforts & healing channeling today in the form of this post. Your energy exchange of $1-$50 makes all the difference! Thank you so much! Present: Seeker of Feathers The naming, releasing, & clearing work you are doing is making room to strengthen your relationship to Spirit. In this card, you are the person with arm stretched out, & Spirit is the bird. Seeker of Feathers is an exercise in trust. Sometimes when we are practicing our magic & reacquainting ourselves with our power, we get nervous that we asked for "too much" or that we don't deserve the good shit in life, so we start trying to predict how to help Spirit help us. Before we know it, we are moving in circles, backtracking, apologizing for taking up space, for asking for what we want, for daring to breathe life into our dreams. The result is that Spirit, the benevolent being that Spirit is, makes the accommodations to meet us where we are, re-orchestrating miracles & healing & abundance on our behalf. But in a state of fear, those old stories of "How Dare I?!?" & " I Knew Better Than to Ask For..." fire up, when all that is required is to hold still & breathe. You can trust that what is yours will come. Future: Five of Keys What is left after the devastation of trauma? Five of Keys wants to know! This card isn't necessarily foretelling something traumatic occurring, though that is a possibility, but rather how do we gather ourselves after? What kinds of things do you tell yourself about yourself? Do you begin swallowing self-blame & shame? Do you berate yourself for not knowing better? Do you heap fuel onto these devastating flames, or a cool hand to your soft brow? Wounds need fresh blood & oxygen to heal, & I think that is what this card is referring to. It is common for older, powerful Survival Selves to appear once we begin changing deeply rooted stories & patterns, & our only task is to love them, to love ourselves. You can honor your own survival without burning everything to the ground again because maybe that was necessary before, but that time is past. Breathe. Trust. Grieve. Let go. Ask. Dream. Live. All of these things also pay homage to the ash you carry in your chest. This is the fresh blood & oxygen you need. Give it. Receive it. Good luck! I am cheering you on! Cheering us all on! We never survive alone. As I Breathe & Bleed, Lettie High Moon Femme Healer Lettie Laughter has over 10 years experience as a community healer, reading tarot & providing other energetic means of healing for loved ones near & far. They are also trying to get Home & are fundraising to make it happen! Please donate to their YOUCARING or PayPal (info on the right sidebar), or book a tarot reading with them for your own magical healing experience--you deserve it! Comments are closed.
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