i will tell myself the truth & come for you

no holds barred

i will use all the words i said i couldn’t
& come hand in hand with the ones who know

i will give myself permission to cry & rage all the pain
& come undone in the safety of a real home with chosen family

i will pick your bones clean
& come down with the giggles as i do

i will throw that brick through your window
& come home with over two years worth of satisfaction

i will not give up on the ones who love me
& come with open heart as i teach them how to fight for me

i will give you all your shit back
& come away with all that you stole

i will be the crack in the foundation of this fucked up place
& come & come & come as you all say my name with utter shock & dismay

i will scrape my name from your tongue
& come with lighter fluid & boiling water & baking soda

i will finally center myself in this whole fuckery
& come into the femmeiverse as i was always mean to be

i will bury the leftovers & irreconcilables 
& come with the perfect song

thank the goddesses for therapy as my life falls apart, & some would say, into place. future ancestor lettie says that, "this is your life falling into place. i have never left. you are so loved." july 2015.