Deer Tender Heart,
Poetry has been my life raft again & again, both bringing me to life & helping me bring life to others. My Fucking Tide: Love & Sex is a collection of poems that have been sitting & rooting since 2012, collecting poem kin along the way. I picked these specific poems to offer you because I am invoking healing through loving my hard-to-deal-with-parts & the magic that has come to me through good sex. "What is good sex?" you ask? The kind that left me wrung out & brimming with words. Healing & magic & sex & coming back to myself seamlessly blend together for me, & these are pieces of that journey.
I am asking for an energy exchange in sharing this work, a donation of $10, $15, or $20. This collection holds 10 poems about love & sex & the magic in between. Please consider gifting yourself or your loves this bundle of femme healing, femme celebration, femme magic. All proceeds go to keeping me here & alive.
I wrote The Nth Generation of Queer Brown Femmes: an invocation, one of the poems in this collection, while I lived in a magical place called the Baberation. We were / are a plethora of queer brown femmes who were / are still trying to figure shit out. One of the things I love(d) about the Baberation was that it was an old nunnery, & I spent many nights talking to the homo angels & queer femme ancestors that still resided in that building. I wrote this poem during these long conversations with myself & the Femmeiverse because I wanted an invocation of protection to combat what we were surviving & what was still yet to come. I hope it does something similar for you, deer one.
The Nth Generation of Queer Brown Femmes: an invocation
sweet strong merciful Femme Ancestors,
we ask for your presence
in our everyday ceremonies & rituals
as we find ways to love & survive,
for your protection & guidance
as we heed our heart’s desires,
& for your help clearing that which doesn't
get the fuck out of our way.
This protection spell is a bonus poem not included in my original collection because it is very new. I wrote it in response to the fuckery I survive on the daily. I wrote it to let the Femmeriverse I am having none of it. I wrote it to send all the cowardly hearts their fucked up energy back. I wrote it to name what happens to me. I wrote it as a warning not to do this shit to me, because there will be consequences. There should be. You cannot fuck over holy fucking femmes anymore.
to the ones who fuck me over